A story I have never told.

A story I have never told.


This is what mental health can look like. What you immediately see is a man who looks sick on the outside when in fact it was the inside that caused this. It was 11am in Las Vegas, I had been under a great deal of stress performing 400 shows a year, creating a tv show, and all the circumstances combined with my long battle with panic disorder created a perfect storm. I felt I was having a heart attack, I was sure of it. I was rushed to the hospital where over the loud speaker they proclaimed a “38 year old male cardiac arrest”. My wife was standing there holding our new born daughter who was crying. I feared that in the coming moments I was going to die. We had a show that next day in Denver Colorado and I wasn’t able to attend. I spent 48 hours in the hospital undergoing tests. When I say I have severe anxiety, panic attacks and Bi-polar episodes l mean it. They have shaped me into the person I am today, good or bad. I wanted to share this for anyone out there who is loosing hope, who are going through brutal ups and downs and seemingly can’t get a grip on their lives. I don’t have my life figured out but I have learned to just be thankful for the good days I do have, that’s all I can ask for, more good days than bad days. Much love to you all❤️

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

In Uganda their way of life is different and their ethics of marriage is not comparable as to other culture.

Image
In Uganda their way of life is different and their ethics of marriage is not comparable as to other culture. In Uganda if you want to marry a lady after everyone is seated they will ask your elder sister to go and have a test of the person who wants to get married to her younger sister to see how the man does in bed and to still confirm it the person manhood is working perfectly before he will be allowed to do the marital right. My culture has started another thing which am yet to define.  I witness a tradition marriage ceremony were everyone is seated all the items bought by the mother in-law was brought out including bed and they supposed husband and wife was ask to go and sleep on it together in public 🙄. I was not there and i didn't hear any story of our parents getting married this way back then in 70s, 80s not to talk of my age now to have witness it, else just for this late 20s where are we going to? Such life is portray publicly even in the presence of parents. No wonder b...
Read more

cheating partners

Image
cheating partners They are sad moments experience by cheating partners, both men and women, if you can take a look at the picture below 👇 you will agree with me that cheating is a very bad act and uncalled for in any relationship or marriage.
Read more

I am a mother of two children I am 26 years old I am also married this is the fifth year,

Image
I am a mother of two children I am 26 years old I am also married this is the fifth year, we were fine with my husband the problem came there is this woman outside there was a day she called me and told me that she is a wife my fellow Then I asked the man and he refused, I calmed down but when that woman started sending me a picture with my husband, she insulted me a lot and claimed that she doesn't love me, she loves him. She lives with me because of the children. Then I persevered because I saw my children going to school, he pays fees and services, I blocked my ears, but the problem was that me and my husband were talking, the woman knew what it meant, she was the one who was telling him, then the disrespect increased, I kept quiet, life continued but until there is a time, I tell my husband that if you love him, be free. Say I will leave with my children and live with them😞😞 She refuses to say that I love you my wife but the surprising thing is that there is a day I have sat...
Read more

Please i need advice on this, post for me I am married with 2 kids ,

Image
Please i need advice on this, post for me I am married with 2 kids , i met my husband when he had nothing , we dated for 5 years and we are married for 6 years now, we suffered to the extent of begging food from family members and neighbors . All this long, he pretended to be a good man and that was why i married him Fast forward, 2 years after, i had a job which was paying very good , i took loan to buy him car to use as Uber here in Accra, he became financially stable after 1 year driving the uber. I bought another car for my personal use which he sometimes drives it when he don’t go to work . My husband dont care about me ever since he became financially stable. He dosnt touch me when he return from work, he sleeps in the sofa or the guest room, he doesn’t sleep in the bedroom again. My husband has now turned different leaves, he is cheating on me with different girls, some are married women, born one’s whom i am even more beautiful than them.  Anytime I approach him of his beh...
Read more

Few different aspects of Islamic history, but it's people usually hide it. (Homosexuality) ISLAMIC ECONOMIC??

Image
Few different aspects of Islamic history, but it's people usually hide it. (Homosexuality)  ISLAMIC ECONOMIC?? PARADIGM, DISCIPLINE AND INDEPENDENCE: Is Islamic economics independent from economics? Does it make a paradigm of its own? Does it depend of a set of assumptions and analytical tools that is different from economics? Does it make a discipline of its own? Many Islamic economists have an undoubted affirmative answer. They argue that it is independent and they take upon themselves the task of attempting to invent an “appropriate set” of tools to understand the behavior of Muslim consumer, firm, macro numbers. The fervor of this attitude was very apparent when the world of economics had two-part Apartheid: communism and capitalism. In fact, communist writers also attempted to identify theirs as an independent paradigm while the capitalist have hidden their agenda under the plain name of “economics” for a long time. To the Islamic religion and ideology, capitalist and communis...
Read more

10 REASONS NOT TO DATE AN OLDER WOMAN.

Image
10 REASONS NOT TO DATE AN OLDER WOMAN. 1. SHE IS DISRESPECTFUL An older woman won't respect you because she sees you as her junior or a boy not mature enough to guide her. She is probably funding your lifestyle and this makes her disrespect you even more.  2. SHE IS ANGRY Since she is older, she will not plug into your masculine energy. This leaves her empty, deprived and frustrated. What follows is a series of drama and chaos including alcoholism. She hates her life, she is angry at herself and therefore she will project this anger towards you.  3. SHE IS REBELLIOUS An older woman believes she is more mature and experienced than you in the marriage. She will openly refuse your instructions and order. She will ridicule your actions and defy you both in public and private. 4. SHE IS MANIPULATIVE An older woman will manipulate you for her own egocentric needs. She will trick you to make wrong decisions that fulfil her temporary desires then when things backfire she will blame yo...
Read more

One of the most agonizing execution methods in human history

Image
One of the most agonizing execution methods in human history , flaying was likely first practiced by the ancient Assyrians of Mesopotamia. Not only did they skin their prisoners of war alive, but they also took strides to make their victims' deaths as painful as possible. Assyrian executioners often started with the victim's buttocks or thighs, using sharp blades to pull the skin off in clean strips so that they could later hang them on the city walls.  This practice later continued on a massive scale during the Ming Dynasty in China between 1368 and 1644 C.E. The cruel Emperor Taizu reportedly slaughtered some 40,000 people just for criticizing him. Then, he followed the Assyrian model of flaying them and hanging their skins from the wall. And unfortunately, this was far from the last time this brutal execution method would be used.
Read more

The Pre-Emptive Strike is a doctrine of Great Evil.

Image
The Pre-Emptive Strike is a doctrine of Great Evil.  It does not matter how this is falsely justified.  Whether using manipulated statistics to create character profiles, demonizing people for their vices, or through false-flag terrorism to manipulate people into submission. Do not surrender your sword, or spear.  I've regularly insinuated that the sword is your pistol, and the spear your rifle in the modern era.  I've changed my mind.  This was partially true, though at present I would suggest the pistol is your short sword and the rifle your war sword.  Though neither are your main sword.  Your main sword are your words.  Your holy sword is scripture.  I regularly suggest to people to use the Holy Bible as their holy sword...  Yet, even this is not necessarily of exact importance.  Even this book has been adultered and redacted.  Even the Old Testament which is the Judaic Bible has been adultered and redacted.  Done so ...
Read more

As a WOMAN, once you PLACE your VALUE on MONEY

Image
As a WOMAN, once you PLACE your VALUE on MONEY, there are THOUSANDS of MEN who are willing and ready to PAY the HIGH PRICE just to make you USELESS and WORTHLESS, by so doing, your VALUE/INTEGRITY is TARNISHED and VALUELESS.. Many MEN will come just for what you have as an ENJOYMENT and they will give you whatever you want just to have it. A lot of DESTINIES have been DESTROYED as a result of this. Many WOMBS have been DESTROYED.. Many GREAT STARS have been taken away.. Listen, if as a WOMAN, you SLEEP with any MAN you want, it's not because you are of HIGH VALUE, it's because you are EASY.. A WOMAN'S VALUE LIES in her BODY. If you think by SLEEPING with a lot of UNWORTHY MEN, your VALUE will INCREASE, TIME will prove you WRONG.  DEAR SISTERS please RESPECT yourselves. Truth is most THINGS you OPEN your LEGS for are very CHEAP and AFFORDABLE if you have a JOB, a SKILL or a TRADE.  In addendum: These WOMEN are not SLEEPING with themselves. I see no difference between a WOMA...
Read more

Medieval Torture for the unfaithful,

Image
Medieval Torture for the unfaithful, here is but just seven of them which if you were unfaithful or a criminal or even just a wroungun you may have received a very sore end on some of these devices  1. Flaying is a method of slow and painful torture and/or execution in which skin is removed from the body. Generally, an attempt is made to keep the removed portion of skin intact 2.The Heretic's fork was a small metal device with two opposed bi-pronged forks attached to a belt. One sharp end was placed against the victim’s throat and the other against their sternum. The victim was forced to hold their head up; if they dropped it, the prongs would pierce their neck and chest. 3. Rat torture was a method used in medieval times. It involved putting a pot of hungry rats into a cage that was strapped to the victim's stomach. The cage was then slowly heated, causing the distressed rats to chew and claw through the victim, trying to escape 4.Crucifixion was once a brutal form of humilia...
Read more